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March 8 2017 Tinanong ko sya, Anong plano mo? (para sa aming dalawa) Ang sagot nya, Hindi ko alam. Iniisip ko baka ganun ang sagot nya ay dahil abala sya sa ibang bagay o hindi lang sya interesado pag-usapan ito. Suddenly I felt alone. The first time I ask a guy what's his plans I got the same response. I felt like the world left me behind in a cold, dark land. Again. Parang di ko na naman alam ang gagawin ko. Pakiramdam ko mag-isa na naman ako sa lahat ng bagay, sa buhay. Masama ang loob ko. Pakiramdam ko para na rin ako iniwan sa ere. Right now, I will just enjoy the time, the moments with her. Plan on my own but still I want her to be there because I love her.

Have you ever love a person that for a short period of time, you felt like she is THE ONE? That anything and everything feels so perfect…  That every moment you spent with each other was pure bliss… But all of those precious moments went to oblivion… Everything we had was borrowed. We both know that right from the start, there is someone you truly love. One day, you left. Still everything between us was good. And all of a sudden, the communication we had was lost and you were nowhere to be found. It hurts. It hurts a lot. I know this is for the better and I have no any right to complain. Months passed and I still feel broken. And then here you are again, knocking on my broken heart telling me you’re sorry and to forget about us that you should have said before you cut the lines. All have been said done and here I am picking up the pieces of what’s left of my being.  Taking each day, one at a time to heal and feel free again.

WARNING: EMOTIONAL BLOG POST AHEAD. PROCEED WITH CAUTION. Okay.. Now that your reading this might as well finish it. Hahaha *hug* From November 19 up to this day, was all gloomy. Everyday I am gathering all the emotional strength I got to get through the day. We have video calls and messages thru social media apps, but not seeing her, being with her in flesh was depressing.  K went abroad to work to fulfill her goals for her family and as she said, for us. I know it's for the better and I understand it but of course I can't help it to miss her.  I am not into LDR (long distance relationship). I want a close proximity with my partner because I'm a touchy-feely person. But the moment I met and love her, I know I have to endure this kind of relationship even before she worked abroad. I can attest now to those posts and articles I read that LDR will test your trust and love for your partner. It will test all your wits end. And I thank the univer

When I got into a relationship, I want it for long term otherwise, none at all. I want it to last. I don't want relationship just for the sake of having one. A partner who stays even if the world gives a lot of reason to leave. And I think I found her. We first met online through an application Moovz. It is like a Facebook for the LGBT community and for straights as well, where you can meet and greet, post anything (nudity is not allowed), make friends. Just like Facebook basically. If I'm not mistaken she is the one who chat me first then I replied. I added her to our Viber group chat 'mooverz' so she can meet fellow Filipino moovz user. Yes we exchange conversations but that's just it because I am eyeing on someone already. But that someone, let's call her A, is not ready. I did my best to court her, send messages, make calls but I guess she is not that ready. So I wandered again, and this girl, let's name her K, popped again asking how my day

By this time, My mom and I were done preparing for New Year's Eve potluck. A bit sleepy because I got to woke up early for it. While my daughter is busy playing her Doc McStuffins' doctor set wit her playmates, I am too, is busy typing and thinking this post. Hahaha. I must say there is a lot of lessons I learned this year. Maybe you can get something from it too. Believe it or not. Haha. 1. You cannot make someone stay if they don't want to. If a person loves you they will stay. If not, they will say hundreds of reasons. At first, talk to them about it. It is like negotiating with them. If both of you wants to continue, go ahead. But If one insists the reasons to leave everything behind, let them go. A relationship should not be one sided love. Make yourself busy and moved on. The right one will come in the right time. 2. Time heals all wounds. It may sound cliché but it's true. It doesn't matter how long it takes to heal. The most important thing is you are healed

Borrowed this trending hashtag from Twitter. Thanks Twitter! People who made my 2015 was quite a lot. People who said that they will stay but stray and the ones who actually stay. They made my year a blast! Blast of tears of sorrow and of course, tears of joy. Without further a due... here we go! To my daughter's father - I would like to thank you for all the fond memories we had back in the days that we are good and everything was doing well. Though sometimes there are low ones, I still thank you for that. I guess it is not yet the time for us. Time will come that both of us will realize a lot about the situation. I wish you well in your endeavors and for whatever you are going through right now, I know you will battle it out. I know you can. Keep safe. Always. To my parents - You are effin the BEST! I can't thank you enough for helping me raise my daughter. I know it's tough for me but both of you lend a helping hand without thinking twice. I know she

August 6, 2015 just a few days from Sophia Ailee's birthday (which is August 19, 2015), I emailed him (Sophia's father) to grant her daughter's birthday wish and how Sophia's told it to us. Night. August 5, 2015, just got home from the office, My mom told me something. Sophie wants to go on a wishing fountain and she will bring a coin. She will throw it in the water and make a wish for her birthday. My mom asked Sophia what's her wish, Sophia answered, I wish daddy will go home. Whoa! it shatters my heart.  I cried. She is looking for her daddy. I am not keeping Sophia for myself. Believe it or not, I want Sophia to be with him to be with his family side but unfortunately, there is no effort coming from everyone else to see the kid. Back to the email.  A few days later. August 13, 2015. I received an email coming from him after the last email he sent me (when he told me that he is leaving all the responsibility to me) for about 1.7 years ago.