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Intimidating Indeed

     Staring straightly on the monitor, tapping my fingers against the computer table, taking deep breaths and thinking, will I or will I not?

     That's what i felt before putting up a blog account here in blogger.com. I am indeed and deeply intimidated because first on blogger.com. Blogger.com is largely and widely known for its excellent blog publishing service for professionals, amateurs and aspiring writer like me. I felt I'm no good for this. Second, the bloggers and their blog posts. Yes, I can write but not as good as them. They are seniors, I'm a kindergarten. (Sorry folks for the inferiority complex. Peace. May you not absorb it)

     But this dark thoughts shattered in to the light of enlightenment when my boyfriend told me
"Oo nga eh nakaka intimidate. Pero isipin mo na lang kapag na-intimidate ka ngayon, mai-intimidate ka na habang buhay" (Yes it is intimidating but come to think of it, if you are intimidated now, then you will be intimidated forever)
      The word habang buhay (forever) echoed through my pearl studded left and right ears. He also told me that every one have different strengths and weaknesses. My strength might be a weakness for other and vice versa. And finally, I say,
"Okay... fine... I'll do it."
     Salamat mahal ko! (Thanks, my love!) If not for him, the words he gave, up to now, I'm still staring at the blogger site, thinking twice with cold sweat. And another thing, one great lass professor once told us,
"You cannot please every body"
     She's right. Thanks Ms. G.S. (Initials is used for her privacy)

     Coming up with this kind of blog really takes a lot of guts and creative juices. I guess I have an ample amount of it. I hope this will be the start of an never ending blogging experience for me here in blogger or blogspot and a good start for me.

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