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Dorm-ant

This blog has been dormant for a quite sometime. Luckily,  its not blocked or banned. This post will be blast from the past so here it goes. Wooosh!

November 5, 2011
A job fair was held somewhere in Manila offering positions from a well known bank. So I prepared for that day. I brought all my documents needed and off I go. At the job fair I met applicants like me whose reason is mainly just to have a job. I passed the interview and written exams. The next day I had my medical exam. It took a month before I finally got the certificate that I am fit to work.

January 2012
Our training. Everything is taught. Not toxic, no pressure at all. How we all wish we're just in training. After 3 weeks of gunshot and information overload training, we're sent to our respective branches. This is the start of a newbie dilemma. Lots of errors even your hands and feet are not enough to count it, shortages you should pay, overage you should give back, endless questions, slow pace transaction, hard to reach or hard or to talk to co-workers, can't-figure-out-attitude officers. How we wish we're all just in training.

January...February...March passed... I deal with different kinds of clients. Irate, submissive, and freak of the world. First two months was a bliss. I got to buy things for myself, for Sophie, and for the peops here at home but the following month as Gaspard and Lisa say it was catastrophe! (in french). More errors occur. Bloody lot's of it! Then little by little, I started to frail. Heavy heart, heavy feet everyday on my way to work. I'm just not happy anymore. I try to give a spark my will to work, though but it wont. So I decided to to end it so as to not perish or peril my co-workers. It should be immediate. They told me things like it's not easy to find a job these days, just go with it, etc. I told to myself, go on and be on my shoes and I persist. April 16, I'm free...almost. Still waiting for the clearance and separation pay, if there's any.

As of now, I'm living my life as a mother taking care of my child and a wife tending to the needs of my husband. Such a task!

I realized that it is so hard to work when your heart and mind was not on it. I felt like I'm a slave serving my master. I hope to find a job that I don't feel like working at all somewhat close to my degree.

Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.
- Confucius
Find your passion... then it is no longer work!
- L.A. Reid 

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