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I had my check up yesterday October 14 and today October 15. Yesterday, I went to my cardiologist and it was a good news. He said that I am already clear from any medications or whatsoever procedures. He also said that I'll make sure of monitoring my blood pressure and if there is any sudden increase of blood pressure, just go to him. Sigh! It's a done deal! And now to my neurologist. She checks on my reflexes, ask some questions and it turned out okay. She told me that it seems like I hardly bare or give birth (a nice compliment for me, of course). This is the worst part, I'm not yet clear in this department. She told me to have cranial MRI and EEG because she wants to make sure that the seizure will not recur to me then I said okay. Then I got home. I searched how much does the MRI cost. OH MY GAWD! It cost a thousands of pesos! It range from ten thousand to twenty thousand pesos. It is the amount of the christening package of my daughter. This is something! It really...

As I said before it's not the day for the migrant workers, it's the part of pregnancy where all your guts, emotion, finance and bodily strength will be put to a test. Morning of August 18, 2001, I started having the contractions. It felt like its ripping my hips off of my body. I immediately tell it to my Mama and said "Wala pa yan. Kapag sunod-sunod na yan at madalas, manganganak ka na. Lakad lakad ka lang. ( That's nothing. When you feel the contractions more frequent and comes in second, you're on your way. Just walk around.) After hearing my Mama's assurance, I spend my no ordinary day doing light house chores. As the night struck, contractions grew stronger. Can't eat my dinner, can't even sleep. That night was very exhausting. I walk around the living room for nth times while taking deep breaths. I even timed the contractions and write it down to monitor if I was really having getting-ready-to-give-birth contractions. As the night went deeper, t...

---> UERMMC Hospital, January 13, 2011         Sophia Ailee was 8 weeks then. Just about the size of a tadpole with normal beating heart. To my awe, it made me say, Oh my god, as I saw her on the ultrasound monitor. She's there, definitely there. ---> Amisola Maternity Hospital, February 22, 2011, Pelvic Ultrasound         Our dear baby has grown a lot. From being a tadpole-like to a human baby body with head like her Didi (shorten term for Daddy), little arms stretching and crossed legs. Her spinal cord and bones in both arms and legs is already formed but still maturing. As I saw her thru the monitor, feels like I can almost touch her. It made me teary eyed during the session. Our baby is perfectly fine and that was an ease on my part and Charles, too. Phew! ---> Twist. Kick. Roll. Punch.         Sounds like a video game, right? We just need some super powers. Hahaha. It is very o...

Iyak, sermon, galit, gulat. Lahat nang iyan ay napalitan ng tuwa, saya, halakhak, pagkasabik. “ Ayoko pong masira yung bakasyon ni Papa …” Paiyak kong sinagot ang tanong ni Mama habang katabi ko si Charles at magkahawak ang aming mga kamay kung bakit hindi agad naming sinabi ang tungkol sa aking kalagayan nung panahong kasama namin si Papa para sa isang linggong bakasyon dito sa Pilipinas – nagtatrabaho kasi si Papa sa Hong Kong bilang isang family driver. Kinabukasan, nasabi na rin ni Charles sa kanyang mama ang tungkol sa aking kalagayan. Natanggap na rin naman agad nya ito. Naging strikto si Mama nung sumunod na dalawa o isang linggong strikto sa aking paggising, pagtulong pati ang paggawa ng gawaing bahay. Dapat raw ay kumilos ako para maiwasan ang pagkamanas ng aking katawan. Ngunit kalaunan ay naging magaan na ang kanyang pakitungo marahil dala lamang ng pag-aalala. Nagbago na ang lahat. Napalitan ang pagkabigla nang pagkasabik.  Ang lahat ay nakaabang sa mga ...

I wrote this on March 7, 2011, 4:20 PM. By this time, may be some of my friends and classmates are now breaking a leg in various institutions and companies related to what we’ve finished studying. Some may have landed on a job they love and earn enough; some may have the job just for the sake of having it not to be called a bum and yet earns a lot; some may have a no choice job to suffice the needs of his/her own family, and lastly, some still waiting for the job they’re dreaming of or wanted of. If you ask me, I have a job – a toughest yet fulfilling and loving one that any woman can have. I am the Chairwoman, CEO, President, Senior Manager or any high ranking positions you can think of. I handle all the departments on my own from the decision making, design, naming, filing of documents, and documentation up to the smallest details of supplies needed, budget, planning and maintenance. I’m the boss. And how much do I get? Well, I get paid everyday but not that much. I earn just a ...

Malamig na hangin Madilim na kalangitan Manbigat na ulap BOOOOM! Bumagsak na ang laksang matatalim na ulan Ito ang aming kalaban. Lumalamig ang kapaligiran Makatindig balahibo Lumalagasgas na mga puno WOOOOSH... Ihip na haniging malakas Ng ulap na si Kulas Ito ang aming kalaban. Kakapa-kapa sa bulsa Lilinga-linga sa kapaligiran Nag-aalala sa kinasapitan Tok! Saktong mamera sa pitaka Nawala ng parang bula Ito ang aming kalaban. Tumatakbo ang kamay Mula sa knayang hanay Sa bilis, walang kapantay TIK TOK TIK TOK (papahina - pawala) Ang mga numero'y nawala Natutunaw na orasan Nagapi ng kalaban.

Ngayong araw na ito, nag-iisip ako ng pwedeng isulat kaso walang pumasok sa isip ko. Kahit anong piga, wala. Lumipas ang mga oras at pagkain. Tanghalian, meryenda, siesta, wala pa rin, wala. Tangan ko pa rin ang bolpen habang nakatitig sa maputi at malinis na papel. Papel na naghihintay mabahiran, marumihan ng tinta ng bolpen. Umikot ang tatlong kamay ng relos. ..... Umupo ng sapo-sapo ang baba. Humiga ng nakatingin sa kisame ng kwarto. Wala pa rin naisulat. Wala...